Over the past couple months, I have been learning a great great lesson, one that has kind of stumped me a bit, for quite some time.
I find that whenever I’m struggling with something, going through a hard time, and just don’t feel God very close to me, I wonder where are you Lord?! It’s difficult sometimes to find my strength and fulfillment in Him, when I don’t even feel Him at all. Oftentimes, this used to lead me to just getting fed up. Giving up. & wondering WHY He’s left me to fend for myself in such a lonely time. Now I know He never did leave me. Nor did He ever forsake me.
The answer was right in front of me. Yet I so quickly chose to ignore it, because.. well, because I’m a selfish human being who would rather have God run to me, then me to Him. I started reading this book recently called “Set Apart Femininity" by Leslie Ludy. AMAZING. First things first - if you’re a girl. Read it. Period. It will change your life. Some way or another. That woman spoke some truth to me. Truth, however, that was always sitting in the book beside my bed. Truth that comes right from His Word, to our lives. I guess I just hadn’t really been paying enough attention.
Leslie Ludy wrote exactly what I needed to hear.
Jesus Christ reveals Himself to those who follow in His steps. He draws near to those who build their entire lives around His pattern. If we feel far away from Him, it is very likely that we aren’t truly building our entire existence around Him; that we are living more for self than for the glory of His name.
Okay. Yup. HELLO. That is all. I wasn’t following directly in His steps. I wasn’t REALLY building my entire life around His pattern. Sure, I was building my life somewhat close to His pattern.. but it was more like my pattern, with a little bit of His thrown in every now and again.I was not existing for His glory, over my own.
So, I did a little bit of digging. In the place where I should have started. The Bible, duh. Let’s start with this one. I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. The life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God who loved me and gave Himself for me. - Galatians 2:20 If we allow him to retrain & enable us to “deny yourself, pick up your cross and follow Him”, we might actually understand from firsthand experience what Paul meant when he wrote this verse.
You will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your heart. - Jeremiah 29:13 Um…. BOOM. How. simple. is. THAT?! Yes, I was reading my Bible, and going to church, and living mostly to glorify His name. But it was more like, I would glorify His name, when it was easy. And I would read my Bible, pretty much when I wanted to be inspired. That’s not how one lives to EXIST around Him!
We grow close to God by reading His Word, and keeping His commandments. It is so simple to draw near to Him! And yet, we so often, as modern Christians, forget the simplicity of it all, and try a million and one different tactics!
Our God put it so simply when He said; And I tell you, ask and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. - Luke 11:9-10
I hope that with what God has taught me through this, I won’t be stumbling around anymore, asking where He is in my life during the hard times. Because I know He is exactly where He has said He will always be - speaking to us through His Word! kb.