my jaw hurts like crazy today.. my friend Heather just told me I’m probably getting my wisdom teeth in.. ahhhh woo freakin whoo. & i leave for camp in two days. money timing.
Right now I’m mostly writing this because my face hurts and I don’t want to pack when half my jaw feels like it might detach from the rest of my cranium. ..sorry for the graphics. I hope the rest of the world is having a lovely day :) Looking outside at the sunny rain provides me with some comfort at least! kb.
the events of the past day and a half make me laugh (out of pure awe) at how fast and crazy and secretly God works. If you had asked me two nights ago my plans for the summer, I would have said I’m working at Winners, and thus will be living a somewhat boring life in the city. But then God flipped that plan completely upside down.
Camp Mini-Yo-We has always been a place I absolutely LOVE. It was my summer home since I was a little kid, where I found my best friends; fell in love with this awesome dude they call Jesus; and learned so much about love, and how hard and easy it can be. But after last summer I had thought I was kind of done with that place for the summer. Not that I stopped loving my life there, but most of my friends had already trickled out, and I knew I would need to make a lot of money for school in summer 2011. As you may know, it took me about a month and a half after returning home from school to finally find a job (this was last week..). I often had this little tug at my heart, reminding me there was always camp.. but I would consistently shove this thought to the back of my head, knowing it wouldn’t guarantee me the money I needed.
Now were back to two days ago, where I receive a few texts from various people telling me theres a position they need filled at camp and they would love for me to fill it… Again, I kind of pushed the thought to the back of my head, reminding myself I had a job now (which gave me one shift a week….). But this time, God wouldn’t let me push that thought away. It become a blaring red light in my mind which I couldn’t stop thinking about for a solid few hours. My uneasyness to accept it fizzled as soon as I told my mom I was praying about this and thinking more seriously, her reaction: to scream at me that I should do it. ..Maybe it was actually God telling me how dumb I was to have pushed the thought away in the first place. But either way, I texted the director the very next day telling her I would absolutely love to be at camp all summer!
& there it is. A plan completely and solely widdled by the Maker of fantastic plans. He’s pretty good at playing some tricks with my head it would seem. kb.
“What blessed relief comes when we finally fall on our knees and humble ourselves before God. We suddenly realize what a heavy weight pride has been. It is exhausting to insist on thinking so highly of oneself with such mounting evidence to the contrary!”—Beth Moore
I’m so glad God hasn’t let me have anyone yet, despite all my whiny, desperate pleas, because then I might only be able to give you a little piece of my heart. But now I know I can give you all of it. He really knows whats best for us. I pray He’s protecting you like He’s protecting me.
“One of the worst results of being a slave and being forced to do things is that when there is no one to force you anymore you find you have almost lost the power of forcing yourself.”—C.S. Lewis. - The Chronicles of Narnia
There’s something i should tell my tumblr followers that i forgot to mention…
I GOT A JOB! feel free to jump for joy on my behalf :) It’s at a retail store in my area, and I’m also waiting to find out if I got another job at a restaurant which would pay better - but in the meantime, i am very content in the Lord’s providence. &even send a prayer of wonderful thanksgiving to God on my behalf, for putting up with my constant prayers and worry. The Lord provides! ..need I say more? kb.
Christ Jesus, before You rebuked the winds and the waves, You asked Your disciples, “you of little faith, why are you so afraid?” Help me to fully embrace that the One whom the winds and the waves obey is the same One who watches over me.
don’t ask me why I did it… I won’t be able to tell you because I don’t know why. but for some reason my 21st-century-infected-mind made me decide to start a “blogger” blog. That one (if you wish to check it out click here) will be more of my musings; thoughts; and longer stories, rather than merely pictures and some occasional word vomiting.
I also felt inclined to do this because I follow so many people on Blogger, so it was just much easier to make a blog over there myself! I’m still just as addicted to tumblr, this just means now I’ll spend less time on facebook :) a good thing. Maybe some of you will be inspired to head over to the dark side too ;) i’ll be waiting! kb.
two things God is teaching me about at the moment. if you ever find yourself stuck in a place where you could not even count the amount of resumes and interviews you’ve gone through, you might also learn a lot about these two very big words which you never thought could contain so much. kb.
“Jail has always been an important place for Christians. In eras of injustice, it becomes the Christian’s home. So live real good, and get beat up real bad. Dance until they kill you, and then we’ll dance some more. That’s how this thing seems to work.”—Shane Claiborne