I am not shouting I am saved. I am whispering I get lost. That is why I choose this way. I do not speak of this with pride. I am confessing that I stumble and need someone to be my guide. I am not trying to be strong. I am professing that I am weak and pray for strength to carry on. I am not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are too visible but God believes I am worth it. When I say I am a Christian, I do not wish to judge. I have no authority, I only know I am loved.
sometimes God does things in my life, so unexpected, that literally bring me to my knees - with hands open to the heavens. Today I experienced one of those moments. I don’t know what it was, or what was going on to make me feel this way today, but it happened. It all started perfectly fine, breakfast with 2 friends, one of whom I hadn’t seen in some time, and it was great! After this, all afternoon I just had the weirdest feeling in my stomach and was all of a sudden in the worst mood. I went up into my room and suddenly just burst into tears. Still not having a clue what was going on inside me, but just feeling so empty and alone, I sat on my bed and begged for God to fill me, and to let me FEEL His love and for help to stop blinding myself to it. Although no lightning bolt hit my house, and the heavens didn’t open up above me and drop Jesus right into my bedroom - I felt His love. I’ve never personally heard God speak to me before, through words, directly into my head or anything, but I know that He was with me, and always is. And He somehow provided the assurance I thought I deserved that he is Yahweh and His love is amazing. I hope that if anyone else is out there and reads this, they are reminded that God loves us no matter WHAT. Even those times when we are on our knees, begging to FEEL something, He.is.there. And He will never stop loving.
But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. - Romans 5:8
This should be reminder enough for us - that by Him sending His son to die on the cross to SAVE us, His love is neverending. kb.
Yesterday was an eventful day spent in the airport for my fam. Suffice to say, happiness was not had by all.
My alarm clock woke me up at the grueling time of 5am and I slowly and groggily (seriously - i have the worst sore throat of my life), got up and started getting changed so we could make our 715 flight. As soon as I stepped out of my room to go to the bathroom however, my dad told me otherwise. Our flight was postponed til 4pm that day because the weather in Fredericton, New Brunswick (where my dad’s brother & family live) was insane (snowstorm). I was kind of happy at this point, that I could actually catch a few more zzz’s, but only because I knew we’d still be in the comfort of Fredericton that night….. little did I know..
3 o’clock rolls around, we’re finally on our way out the door to the airport. We get there. Flight is postponed from 450 to 530 … okay. Minor speed-bump. We can handle this. 510… no boarding notice yet. 520… “Ladies and Gentlemen, I am sorry to inform you, that due to bad weather conditions in Fredericton, Flight 774 will not be able to take off this evening”. BEAUTY. Alright.this sucks. So, my Dad (being the pilot that he is —- not really, he flies little planes for fun.. but by some means, seems to know how to handle all ‘airport’ situations) goes and talks to the lady (his aviation GPS in hand — maybe this will change her mind and call a personal flight for the 5 of us? who knows..) and comes back with word that, believe it or not, the flight is really cancelled and we cannot make it to Fredericton on Flight 774. Okay, probably could’ve told you that without a GPS, but we all roll on. We THEN proceed to the baggage claim, where we can pick up our bags that were sent off on a conveyer belt not 2 hours ago. Sit there for up 45 minutes. Get our bags. Sit there for another 45 minutes while my dad calls ticket people and tries to get us on the next flight to Fredericton - Wednesday night… and we’d be leaving Fredericton Friday afternoon…… does this sound like a waste of money to anyone else or am I just the oddball of my family? ..although I HAD been waiting to see my cousins and aunt and uncle since we saw them last year at christmas, I thought a day and a half was not going to do any of us much good..
Finally, hours later, spent in the Toronto Pearson airport - we are on our way home… again. WE aren’t too happy that we are returning; my sister is not happy she has to now cancel all her parties for the week; and our family members in NB are pretty glum as well. So.. i guess it’s a lose-lose-lose situation here. And now, I am stuck at home again with nothing but tumblr to heal my wounds. Hope everyone else had a joyful christmas break at least!!
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“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough.
Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and GOD.
It is never between you and them anyway.”—Mother Teresa
Today, i’m pretty sure i rocked the PANTS off my communication studies exams! or at least BETTER have as hours and hours of studying went into those 75 multiple choice questions! Now onto bigger and better things :) well… more like bigger. I just have one more exam to go but it’s not for a week, so I will wisely use that time by GOING HOMMME!!! … probably eating lots of food. Probably playing in the wonderful snow outside my window :) My school so kindly gave me an exam on the VERY last possible date to have one, and then even more kindly, made second semester begin on the 4th of January….giving me about a week and a half of christmas break time. So thoughtful of them. Goodluck to other university students out there currently hating their lives to do the biggest dread of any students’ career: Exam period. kb.
yuck so today begins the endless moments of reading pages and pages of notes and notes and books and books to prepare for five final examinations which will define me as a University Student. Such a joyous event. good luck to all you other students in the world who are feeling as much dread as I currently am. kb.
"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."
Today’s “My Utmost for His Highest” (by Oswald Chambers - AMAZING devotional) mentioned this verse and it made me feel like somewhat of an idiot.
Most of the time I think about life with God as the easiest route, and how lucky I am to be one of those “christians” who has everything good going for them. I AM one of those christians, and life with God IS an easier route than a lot of other ones (especially because the end of it leads to something far more wonderful than our minds can understand!!), but I very often forget that the trials and tribulations we face in this world are NECESSARY in bringing us to one day sit next to our Creator in Heaven.
Whenever I hit a small glitch, or speed bump in my life I always cry out to God, asking Him why I have to be faced with this kind of thing if I’m just obeying His commands and trying my best to just fly under the radar. The thing I’m coming to realize, however, is that, as Christians, we CAN’T just sit back and fly under the radar. We need to become those RADICAL followers of Christ, by showing people the great heights of His love through our actions.
And yes, tribulations will come. We WILL be knocked down. We WILL have those times when we are crying out to God, asking Him where He is. But He is beside us every step of the way, and He sees the future, and the payoffs we cannot yet see, for trenching through the tribulations and walking alongside Him through every single one.
I hope that you and I, my brothers and sisters in Christ, will remember this the next time we go through a trial or tribulation here on earth - that one day in Heaven we will be so incredibly blessed for it! kb.
So my friend just texted me, asking me this question: “Do you know any Bible verses or quotes where Jesus tells us that everything happens for a reason?” I opened some of my favourite verses that run along the same kind of theme as the well-known “everything happens for a reason” phrase, BUT it made me think about that statement in greater detail when I started reading such verses as the most generic Jeremiah 29:11, and other verses like Psalm 55:22 Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. or Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. OR Ephesians 3:20 Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us and Jeremiah 33:3 Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known. ALRIGHT. so with those all said, I think I have to disagree with the fact that “everything happens for a reason”. YES, everything has a purpose, and YES God USES everything to benefit those who love him (Romans 8:28), but, I don’t think that means that every single detail of every single persons life happened for a reason, or to in some way lead to something else. Some things just happen, and that is just part of the joy and the spontaneity of life! When most people use this statement, they mean it to say that everything has a divine purpose, and that God used such events to ‘teach someone a lesson’. I believe this would be false. However, I do believe that things obviously happen for a reason, BUT this does not mean that God is that author of every single out-come in every part of a situation. God brings out the best of every situation. Of course bad things happen.. these are not from God, rather, Satan, and this is where our Mighty Creator steps in and does His best to provide His children with the support and Love that they may need. I hope this doesn’t confuse anyone, or cause them to quote me on anything I’ve just said (besides the bible verses!).. it was kind of just some thoughts that I just blurted into words, that are still being sorted out in my head. Regardless, no matter what situation I am going through, I know I can find victory in placing my struggles and situations into God’s hands, and He will graciously provide me with a way through it. peace and love. kb.
A really inspiring girl who I know, posted something on her blog that I just read, which felt as though it was directly out of my life. (If you’re reading this Ashley, thanks for opening my eyes and letting me realize the little “fusses” that I have too, should really mean nothing!) Sometimes little worries and stresses seem to pop up on our radar JUST when we feel as though nothing else could go wrong. I need to constantly remind myself that I’M NOT the one in control. God is. And if I just let go, and let Him take the reigns, things will work out MUCH better than if I try and do anything… cause most people who know me will know that wouldn’t turn out nicely. Ashley also posted a verse on her blog from Luke, when Mary and Martha have the priviledge of having Jesus in their home, and while Mary sat at the Lord’s feet to just LISTEN, Martha troubled herself with all these tiny little details about her home that did not matter. I am like Martha more of the time I think, worrying myself with these little things that I KNOW aren’t important, but I need to remember to just sit. Like Mary. And Listen to Jesus. Because HE is the only one who will put my life onto the right tracks.
But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.” — Luke 10:41-42