I am not shouting I am saved. I am whispering I get lost. That is why I choose this way.
I do not speak of this with pride. I am confessing that I stumble and need someone to be my guide.
I am not trying to be strong. I am professing that I am weak and pray for strength to carry on.
I am not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are too visible but God believes I am worth it.
When I say I am a Christian, I do not wish to judge. I have no authority, I only know I am loved.
sometimes God does things in my life, so unexpected, that literally bring me to my knees - with hands open to the heavens. Today I experienced one of those moments.
I don’t know what it was, or what was going on to make me feel this way today, but it happened. It all started perfectly fine, breakfast with 2 friends, one of whom I hadn’t seen in some time, and it was great!
After this, all afternoon I just had the weirdest feeling in my stomach and was all of a sudden in the worst mood. I went up into my room and suddenly just burst into tears. Still not having a clue what was going on inside me, but just feeling so empty and alone, I sat on my bed and begged for God to fill me, and to let me FEEL His love and for help to stop blinding myself to it.
Although no lightning bolt hit my house, and the heavens didn’t open up above me and drop Jesus right into my bedroom - I felt His love. I’ve never personally heard God speak to me before, through words, directly into my head or anything, but I know that He was with me, and always is. And He somehow provided the assurance I thought I deserved that he is Yahweh and His love is amazing.
I hope that if anyone else is out there and reads this, they are reminded that God loves us no matter WHAT. Even those times when we are on our knees, begging to FEEL something, He.is.there. And He will never stop loving.
But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. - Romans 5:8
This should be reminder enough for us - that by Him sending His son to die on the cross to SAVE us, His love is neverending.
i don’t know if you noticed… but I am pretty stoked for my first snowboard of the season ….tomorrow.
Yesterday was an eventful day spent in the airport for my fam. Suffice to say, happiness was not had by all.
My alarm clock woke me up at the grueling time of 5am and I slowly and groggily (seriously - i have the worst sore throat of my life), got up and started getting changed so we could make our 715 flight. As soon as I stepped out of my room to go to the bathroom however, my dad told me otherwise. Our flight was postponed til 4pm that day because the weather in Fredericton, New Brunswick (where my dad’s brother & family live) was insane (snowstorm). I was kind of happy at this point, that I could actually catch a few more zzz’s, but only because I knew we’d still be in the comfort of Fredericton that night….. little did I know..
3 o’clock rolls around, we’re finally on our way out the door to the airport. We get there. Flight is postponed from 450 to 530 … okay. Minor speed-bump. We can handle this. 510… no boarding notice yet. 520… “Ladies and Gentlemen, I am sorry to inform you, that due to bad weather conditions in Fredericton, Flight 774 will not be able to take off this evening”. BEAUTY.
Alright.this sucks. So, my Dad (being the pilot that he is —- not really, he flies little planes for fun.. but by some means, seems to know how to handle all ‘airport’ situations) goes and talks to the lady (his aviation GPS in hand — maybe this will change her mind and call a personal flight for the 5 of us? who knows..) and comes back with word that, believe it or not, the flight is really cancelled and we cannot make it to Fredericton on Flight 774. Okay, probably could’ve told you that without a GPS, but we all roll on.
We THEN proceed to the baggage claim, where we can pick up our bags that were sent off on a conveyer belt not 2 hours ago. Sit there for up 45 minutes. Get our bags. Sit there for another 45 minutes while my dad calls ticket people and tries to get us on the next flight to Fredericton - Wednesday night… and we’d be leaving Fredericton Friday afternoon…… does this sound like a waste of money to anyone else or am I just the oddball of my family? ..although I HAD been waiting to see my cousins and aunt and uncle since we saw them last year at christmas, I thought a day and a half was not going to do any of us much good..
Finally, hours later, spent in the Toronto Pearson airport - we are on our way home… again. WE aren’t too happy that we are returning; my sister is not happy she has to now cancel all her parties for the week; and our family members in NB are pretty glum as well. So.. i guess it’s a lose-lose-lose situation here. And now, I am stuck at home again with nothing but tumblr to heal my wounds.
Hope everyone else had a joyful christmas break at least!!
as I will probably not be making an appearance on tumblr tomorrow, this is me saying Merry Christmas to everyone, and have a holly jolly festively wonderful day celebrating the birth of our Father!!
For anyone who feels like helping someone across the world receive some clean water for christmas click HERE and help me raise $1000 dollars for charity:water !!
100% of the proceeds go towards building wells all around the world where clean water is not readily available. This year, all I am asking for for Christmas is your help, donate even a couple dollars to help people of all ages receive something as simple and everyday as WATER!
Thanks world :)
I hope you are all jumping for joy on the other side of this screen as much as I am :)
My christmas exam break began by making some lovely fun gifts for my friends! I can finally breathe and begin to fall into the wonderful christmas schedule!!
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough.
Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and GOD.
It is never between you and them anyway.” —Mother Teresa